some days, I allow myself to let go, to really feel sad-because I don't live in denial, I don't want to hurt and I don't believe I deserve to be in pain.
Once I found forgiveness of myself, I could accept grief for what it truly is for me. I understand everyone defines grief differently.For me, it is a distinct deep sadness of missed moments. I grieve the time I lost with Shannon. I know for me, I miss that the most. I miss everything about her-her physical beauty, her smile and her sweetness. I miss our routine-the phone calls, emails and silliness. I miss our hugs, the laughter and the kisses. I miss our moments.
For me, it is important to share information and to try and educate people about grief. It is also, that people know they are not alone if they don't want to be. And, I want parents to remember to love their kids every day-out loud. Tell them-every day-out loud, how much you love them, and why. Tell each of them something special about them, that they will remember and cherish-as a moment.
Grow in a new direction every day, while your kids are growing, you are growing, too. Just like I am growing in a new direction every day. We all are, really. That is what life is-growing and direction. Hopefully, heavenward! Onward and upward..oh, come on-we need to lighten up a little, right?
I just believe we are all in this together, to learn, to grow, to love and be loved. And to pray, because we know the power of prayer and faith as a mother grieves.