I know concentrating on good works outside of me, reaching beyond my pain, into someone else's world, into 'You', another Y-can be beneficial on those tough days. When I uplift another heart, my heart benefits. When you give a smile, you smile on the inside, too. Every good act, no matter how small, creates a ripple in the pond, that can reach far and wide..
I want to be able to say YES-a BIG Y word to God, but some days, it is almost painful to raise my head off the pillow, much less pretend to be cheerful. It takes all the energy I can muster to haul myself to work, stay focused and productive and maintain a pretty good attitude. I am working on it daily.
Yonder is a fine word, right? What's out YONDER? It's a little like asking God, what's next. What's out yonder, Lord? Behind the clouds and past the pain. Will my heart ever heal and be whole again? My hope is in You. Only You know what lies ahead, Father-out Yonder..
Yellow is the color of the sun and daffodils and butter and some sad things too. It is a 'why' word for some of us. It might trigger a memory or a moment. Colors, smells, special days, pictures can bring back thoughts and some might hurt, but one day I believe when healing has seeped deep into our minds, bodies and souls, we will be able to experience these things and know the pleasure those memories once brought us. We will feel the love and warmth of the sun and we will smell the sweet daffodils once again.
Father, I am grateful for the love and hope along this journey. For the friends and family that support me as a walk this path. For new friends who I meet along the way and for "Y" Days. My Yahweh Days-When I know I am lost and need to give it all to You because without You I am nothing.
Yesterday, is but a memory Lord, let it be a pleasant one and let me have served You well in it. Tomorrow is still only a possibility, but today is the day that matters. Help me focus on the tasks of this day, and 'Y'earn to please You in all I do and say. Help me see the good in this day and be an answer to someones 'Why?" Day.
And always remind me to pray, Lord-because no matter what kind of day it is..I always know the power of prayer and faith as a mother grieves.